how i wished i could reclaim the past,

so....todae when i woke up from my sleep,i felt sth is missing,i thoroughyly check all the materialistic item that i have;my laptop,my phone,tv....and other stuffs.all were present.but since everything is preaent,wad was missing????it was the laughter in me.....i've lost my laughter for todae,and drown myself with the sorrowness.i think that this year,everyone that i really,really TREASURE......is going away.for all the positive thinking that i could think of,it would only be defeated by the negative thinking.its not as if they are dying or living abroad,its the atmosphere that they had put up for me is disappearing one by one.thats why i hate to get close with someone that i noe they would be going in a blink of an eye......they really made me sick.its like they give u an oppoturnity to LOVE them for a sec,and SHATTERED it away,the next momment......why cant they juz leave it FLOWING????.....thats all i can share with u guyz todae,ciao.